"Any Shape You Take" by Indigo de Souza

Indigo de Souza says she’s a shapeshifter. And that’s precisely the reason for the title of her sophomore release: Any Shape You Take. “The album title is a nod to the many shapes I take musically. I don’t feel that I fully embody any particular genre—all of the music just comes from the universe that is my ever-shifting brain/heart/world,” says Indigo.

In 2018, Indigo de Souza self-released her debut I Love My Mom, a slow-burning and wrenching release. It was recorded quickly, in just a few days at a friend's house, giving us the unabashed tracks like “How I Get Myself Killed” and “Take Off Ur Pants.”

Any Shape You Take acts as a companion piece, or a part two, to Indigo’s debut. “Many of the songs on these two records came from the same season in my life and a certain version of myself which I feel much further from now,” Indigo says.

On Any Shape You Take, repetition is key. Death, for example, is a central touchstone. “You were darker than death/When I spoke to you last,” sings Indigo with her recognizable idiosyncratic voice on “Darker than Death.” And then, on “Die/Cry”: “I’d rather die than see you cry.” But along with death, there is love. More specifically, there is the end of love. Any Shape You Take seems to loosely be tracked in chronological order, following a love story that doesn’t quite work out, whether that love be for oneself or love for another.

“I wanted this album to give a feeling of shifting with and embracing change. These songs came from a turbulent time when I was coming to self-love through many existential crises and shifts in perspective,” says Indigo.

“Pretty Pictures” is a clear break-up song, detailing the experience of knowing that a relationship is not good, but still not wanting it to end. “Real Pain” is akin a breakup song as well, eventually spiraling into a big ball of screams, cries, and moans, before snapping out of the chaos to come back into focus with this line: “I wanna kick, wanna scream, I wanna know it's not my fault.” In this way, “Real Pain” traces the contours of a breakup with its own structure.

The track “Way Out” takes a poetic approach. “I’m looking for a way out,” begins Indigo. In the song, she asks for someone to change, and ends by repeating the phrase “I wanna be a light.” It's as if to say: I’ll be your light if you will follow.

The album wraps up with “Kill Me,” the ultimate masochistic plea. “Kill me slowly, take me with you/ Down to the garden where magnolias bloom,” sings Indigo de Souza. And so, Any Shape You Take becomes a fully formed reflection of gut-twisting love, self transformation, and beautiful pain.

Listen below.